Author Archives: Rodrick Heffley

A rant

This post isn’t required but I can’t sleep and I have no one to talk to so here we are. I keep overthinking about stupid things I can’t stop thinking about my dumb ex and how they’re probably in love with another person and how the person I’m talking to is just boring. A boring boring person. It’s not hard to be slightly interesting and yet they aren’t. How do you go from a person that understood you better than you did to a person that doesn’t even care enough to know your favorite color? You don’t. You can’t. You just lay there 1 am wishing that you had the person that you once had. But you can’t. They’re off asking someone else what their favorite color is.

I told myself that I wouldn’t text them but I did and now I’m pissed. I shouldn’t have. They don’t care about me what am I doing? They won’t respond but now I’ll stay up later waiting for them. I wish they would miss me. They don’t and they never will. Let’s just make a playlist. I didn’t make a playlist I went onto their account and saw that they made a new one. A little while ago they said one of the songs reminded them of me. They might’ve made it for me. I’m listening to their playlist sobbing holding on to a stuffed animal they gave me. I am pathetic. I need to move on.

Things that I miss: awfultune.

Life

Life is hard
Life is digging a hole at the beach but the sand around just keeps falling in.
It’s failing over and over and over again
That’s why people need to dig bigger holes 
Try new things to get around hard obstacles 
Learn and learn and learn again
Until you don’t get as much sand in
Life is all about mistakes 
Life without the challenge would be stupid 
Don’t be stupid just live.

Envy

There is a difference between jealousy and envy.
Everyone feels jealous sometimes.
Listen to Olivia Rodrigo 
Actually that might be envy.
There’s a very fine line
I know I get jealous sometimes but I don’t think it’s ever become envy
Envy consumes you
You can’t stop thinking about how’d you rather be them or possess what they have.
Envy is dangerous 
It is poison 
That’s why people turn green with envy
Then they rot 
All because of stupid envy

whatever

i took the best nap today. 
i didn't actually sleep but i felt amazing after
probably because it was with another person 
we watched the first 30 minutes of 5 feet apart. 
it was incredibly stupid
the first 5 minutes talk about human touch 
i didnt realize how much i needed it until i was in their bed.


it was my second time seeing them i didnt think it was going to be a big deal. 
until they grabbed my face.
they were a terrible kisser. absolutely awful.
but i dont think i wouldve rather had it been with anyone else
they were incredibly sweet and made me feel safe
i know i shouldnt have taken a nap with them
because now its gonna hurt like a bitch when i leave them

remorsefully rh

Luv

love is not real 
at least not in the way we think. 
the expectations and effort is always unrealistic. 
one person always loves more than the other, 
i should know. i won the "i love you more" game.
but after the heartbreak i realized, love isnt romantic, the deepest love is usually between friends. 
i love you all dearly, i wish to get to know you more,
sincerely r.h.

The sun.

The sun keeps me going
We don’t think about it very much but the sun is always there for us.
The sun is there every morning greeting us with beautiful shades of pink and oranges 
He’s there all day long giving us warmth for our faces
He dreads leaving us at night because he knows his light won’t be there to guide us,
But we know that every day he’ll come back to bless us with his light 

I wish I could find someone that I could depend on that was like the sun,
Someone that I knew would be there everyday. 
Someone that I would always be enamored by,
Someone that could be my sunshine.
Instead I’ll keep watching the sunrise by myself
Knowing that I’ll always have the sun

-R.H.

Dore

Humans naturally compare themselves to others which is why when we were shown the examples in class I new automatically I wasn’t supposed to be here.

I am not a poet. I don’t express my feelings angelically through verses, instead I am on the löded diper level. I wish I could be a poet but instead I just write stupid lyrics.

My ideas are less deep and thought provoking than others but that’s okay because we keep it simple. this is supposed to be an introduction but there isn’t much to introduce. Coming from a person with a hard surface it’s pretty difficult to open up to people so I’ll start with a couple things and maybe I’ll get more comfortable. Probably not tho, this is school- trying in public school is a waste of time. I’m already a successful singer so what’s the point? (Follow me on sound cloud plz).

Anyways here’s some things I strongly believe:

Eyeliner is hot on everyone.

Concerts are the best.

Being intelligent doesn’t mean getting good grades.

Make people do things for you while you take naps.

Also spelling is stoopid.

Also it’s not manipulating people if there just flat out stupid. Like Greg.